Shelter In-Place COVID-19 Blog September 2025

California issued shelter in-place orders on Tue Mar 17, 2020. I have been logging the highlights and lowlights. There was no summer day 100 degrees or higher. Cooler summer. COVID-19 news was reported as non-top of the hour importance.

Mon Sep 1. President Donald Trump said, "Many people think they are a miracle that saved millions of lives. Others disagree! With [the Center Of Disease Control] (CDC) being ripped apart over this question, I want the answer, and I want it now." Trump was between the rapid development of COVID-19 vaccines in 2020 during his first term and the vaccine skepticism with the MAGA and Health And Human Secretary (HHS) Robert F Kennedy, Jr. Trump said Operation Warp Speed was a great achievement. Trump is supporting Kennedy's efforts to revamp vaccine policies.

Wed Sep 3. California, Oregon, and Washington announced an alliance to establish vaccine regulations for their states. The HHS said the three states' COVID-19 policies show distrust in public health agencies. HHS ensures policies are based on science and not on politics. Other states formulate their own policies and recommendations.

Sun Sep 7. 2,000 days ago since Tue Mar 17, 2020.

Mon Sep 8. Shopped at Safeway, Lowe's, and Costco. A few more customers and a few more employees wore masks.

A close family member tested positive for COVID-19 for the third time.

Tue Sep 9. The US death rate caused by COVID-19 was out of the top ten in 2024. The rate decreased from 750.5 per 100,000 people in 2023 to 722.0 per 100,000 people reported by the CDC and the National Center For Health Statistics. The three leading causes of death remained unchanged from 2023 to 2024. They were heart disease, cancer, and unintentional injury.

The CA Public Health Department reported hospitalizations increased, deaths doubled, and wastewater levels were very high in the last 30 days. The state blamed vaccine confusion. For instance, nobody under the age of 65 can receive a booster. If the person under the age of 65 is considered high risk, then the person can receive the booster.

Thur Sep 11. Virginia, Connecticut, New Jersey, Oregon, Arizona, New Mexico, New York, and Minnesota are some states to expand COVID-19 vaccines. These states break away from the federal government health agencies guidance on the COVID-19 restrictions. Anyone age six months or older can receive a vaccine.

Fri Sep 12. Shopped at Costco. Ate dinner at In-N-Out.

Wed Sep 17. California, Oregon, Washington, and Hawaii formed the West Coast Health Alliance. The alliance announced vaccine recommendations against the CDC recommendations. All residents older than six months can receive a flu shot. All babies receive the RSV vaccine. The COVID-19 vaccine is available for children from six months to 23 months old; adults age 65 and older; everyone younger than age 65 with risk factors or in contact with at-risk people, pregnant women, and anyone who wants the vaccine.

Massachusetts is leading a bipartisan eight Northeast states to discuss coordinating vaccine recommendations. New Mexico pharmacists administer the COVID-19 vaccine based on state health department guidelines.

Thur Sep 18. JAMA Network Open published a study from nine teams of researchers. A universal COVID-19 vaccine recommendation can save thousands of more lives compared to limiting the recommendation to high risk groups. High risk groups recommendation only reduce 90,000 hospitalizations and 7,000 deaths. All groups recommendation reduce 126,000 hospitalizations and 8,000 deaths.

Fri Sep 19. The CDC recommended the COVID-19 vaccine to anyone who wants the vaccine shot. Many major medical insurance companies cover the costs in 2025 and 2026. A doctor prescription is not required. States can disclose a list of at least six vaccine risks to patients.

Many CDC panelists are selected by Kennedy. The panelists question the vaccine's benefits. Regardless, the panelists allow people access to the vaccine. They should consult with their health care provider for which it's not a requirement.

Sat Sep 20. Ate lunch at Amakara. Shopped at Lowe's.

Thur Sep 25. Shopped at Costco.

Read Books To Learn Different Wisdom

Blogger's Note: May is pic month. I'm catching up posting pics from my smart phone. Enjoy!

Different wisdom perspectives: You don't need to learn every day, nothing is possible, take and take the opportunity, and quitting or stopping may be the best choice. Ring Security owners a reminder the motion sensor slides up and down from the wall mount. Lowe's sells working gloves. The Riichi junk mat can be used for other Mahjong styles. Blame management for JoAnn Fabrics' bankruptcy. It's okay to spoil oneself for soft serve ice cream.

United States Of America Today Is Election Day 2024

I voted today in the 2024 US Presidential Election. I dropped off my absentee ballot at the local library. I went inside the library to shop at their small used bookstore afterwards. I completed errands at the bank, Nike Store, Ross, and Target.

The first time I saw a vote sign was Nov 1980 at my elementary school. I was in first grade. I read words and sentences being six years old; although, I didn't know it was Jimmy Carter and Ronald Regan. The school was decorated with the standard American flags, voting signs, and direction arrows. I remember a school administrator or a teacher telling me the sign says vote.

The first time I voted in a presidential election was Nov 1992. Bill Clinton defeated George H.W. Bush. I voted in all elections. California should keep the absentee paper ballot system. The old school still works. If it's not broken, then don't fix it.

Time Tells The Narratives

The 2024 presidential candidates Kamala Harris and Donald Trump prepare multiple speeches. Harris and Trump prepare for all outcomes. Harris and Trump prepare for all narratives. I wrote the blog Prepare Multiple Conversation Subjects on Oct 20, 2016 which stated prepare a victory speech and a defeat speech. I wrote the blog United States Of America Today Is Election Day 2020 on Nov 3, 2020 which stated the system works. The people vote for the best candidate.

Furthermore, the voting system is secured. The media overhyped and overblown the fear people's votes are uncounted.

Some of my bullets points from the blog Instant Bullet 2020 United States Presidential Election Version written on Jan 20, 2021 are valid today. My favorites are the following:

*There are 46 Presidents Of The United States. These 46 Presidents are out of all the people who live or lived as naturalized born United States Citizen age 35 or over. 46 dreams came true. It's unfortunate few people accomplish their dreams completely.

*Any given day the President influences at most 25% of your daily life. Think carefully. Think deeply. The President doesn't affect much.

*The Electoral College works. For example, 18.5 million votes were casted in the battleground states Pennsylvania, Wisconsin, Arizona, and Georgia. Biden won all four states over Trump by 125,000 votes or 0.676%.

George Costanza Is A Winner Today

Seinfeld fans know George Costanza is a loser. There were episodes George was unemployed and lived with his parents. George was a loser yesterday. Maybe George is a winner today. I speculate. There may be a growing trend adults question their price of freedom. The adults are thinking again the cost of independence. The prices to pay for living on their own are increasing such as rent or mortgage, gas, groceries, bare necessities, leisure, clothing, and maintaining relationships. Dead-end careers. Underpaid jobs. A weak relationship. Dragged-down friends. Too much stress. Little sleep. Worsening health. A solution is quit the job, say good-bye to friends, sell everything, and move back home. The chances living a happier life is increased living with the parents. There are fewer people. People drama is reduced. Minimize eating processed foods; for example, restaurant prices are increasing. There are more hours to sleep. Learn something new.

Don't take your parents for granted. Do your share maintaining the residence. There is a new way of being a winner.

Update On A Past Blog

I blogged Homeless Encampment Eviction Day Real Story on Mar 23, 2024 for which I linked a KTVU Fox 2 News reported on a homeless encampment eviction in Oakland, CA Eviction day for Oakland's Wood Street homeless encampment aired on Apr 10, 2023. I posted 24 YouTube comments and opinions.

There is another story missed from the 24 comments and opinions. The parents and/or the families of the homeless. Abusive parents, alcoholic parents, violent grandparents, mental instability parents, criminal parents, incest, siblings bullying, and more. No loving upbring while the homeless were children and teenagers. Childhood trauma without intervention resulted in drug abuse and homelessness.

There are some homeless who are former military experiencing mental problems and PTSD. It's unfortunate these homeless military didn't have family support or slipped through the cracks needing treatment.

Is forcing institutional rehabilitation a top solution? The involuntary homeless needing treatment must be told to get treatment to recover. The result is some of these involuntary homeless actually recovered. Tough question. Tough solution. Multiple opinions.

Raymond Mar Political Opinions

Government system: Democratic
Political party: Republican. I'm anti-Trump.
Liberal, conservative, or moderate: Moderate
Economic system: Capitalism
LGBTQ recognition: Pro
Income tax: Flat tax system
Sales tax: Against
Legalize marijuana or cannabis: Yes
Gun policy right to bear arms: Pro
Abortion woman's right to choose: Pro
Schools teach cursive handwriting: Yes
Students attend more years in school: Transition kindergarten mandatory, grades K-5 primary school, grades 6-9 junior high, grades 10-13 high school
Fund police: Yes
Fund military: Yes
Fund fire: Yes
Universal basic income: Federal government pays US citizens $2,000 per month no questions asked
Immigration reform: Yes. Limit immigration is yes. Limit H1B visas is yes. American citizens are priority.
Mexican and US border wall: Yes
Rent control: Against
COVID-19 mandatory mask requirement: Yes. The mask mandate ends when people no longer need to wear masks in health care facilities.
Affordable Care Act or Obamacare: Against
Climate change: Pro. Tough changes and sacrifices required.
Government pays for free community college: Against
Fund Planned Parenthood: Yes
Death penalty: Pro; however, if the costs are too high, then against
Women in combat: Against
Euthanasia: Pro
Minimum wage or living wage: Yes
Affirmative Action: Against

More opinions can be found at ISideWith...

Update On A Past Blog

There is a Reddit post about US students behind in education The public needs to know the ugly truth. Students are SIGNIFICANTLY behind. on Feb 23, 2024. The Original Poster (OP) teaches high school. The OP listed what students can't do such as read at a high school level, write complete sentences, spell simple words, round numbers, calculate percentages, and no research skills. Multiple posts said today's students use calculators for simple math such as 4+6. Multiple posts said today's students improperly Google search for information and Google search to learn.

I wrote SOMT: Calculators Are Allowed on Jun 13, 2021 teachers allowed students to use calculators anytime. It started in my senior year in high school. My junior year in high school and my previous school years calculators were not allowed in tests. The teachers wanted to teach the math concepts and math theories.

I'm not a professional educator. Perhaps, education administrators need to go back to the old school days. Bring back phonics. Bring back flash cards. Bring back learning fun and games. Bring back practice, drills, memorization, practice, drills, memorization, practice, drills, memorization. Bring back learning the basics of the basics. Minimize use of calculators. Minimize use of computers. Minimize use of the internet. Eliminate distractions. If the use of computers and internet are approved, then teach students how to Google properly.

Happy Living An Alternate Life

My current life is the George Costanza from Seinfeld when he was unemployed and lived with his parents. I can live a life working in a crappy dead-end job while spending my free time watching TV and playing video games. Unacceptable. The life is a loser. I can upgrade somewhat. I live a life working in a white collar and dead-end job, struggle financially, spend time with weak friends, practice unhealthy habits, find little time to learn life skills, and spend little time job self-training. The idea adults must move out of their parent house just to move out of their parent house is questioned. The global pandemic exposes the truth independence can be overrated. Living independently may be deceptive independence is the way to live an adult life.

If anyone asks me if I'm happy, then my answer is I'm working on it. If anyone asks me if I'm happy yes or no, then my answer is yes. I accept my alternate life hoping its temporary.

Forget the average life. Forget the B's, C's, and D's graded life. Grade A life or grade F life. Success or failure. There is nothing between success and failure. I have nothing to lose. I'm fortunate I still have a choice how to live my life. I don't take the choice for granted.

Update On A Past Blog

The world is happy when I'm happy. I reference the last paragraph in Happy Life on Dec 21, 2010. Happy life is for everyone. Happy life must be earned and worked on. Happy life never comes to you and me on a silver platter. Go out and get happy--a happy life.

Two What Ifs in 2016

Blogger's note: Today's blog is posted in Innovating Common Knowledge blog and Finding Raymond Mar blog.

I interviewed for two jobs in 2016. The first job interview was an analyst position for a Canadian space company in Jul 2016. The department was offsite from the main campus. The official job title was Database Coordinator with minimal data entry. The job was a non-traditional business analyst or data analyst. The requirements included database administration, reporting, and updating webpages. Outdated proprietary software. The employees were senior citizens for which the youngest was the late 50s. They wanted a younger jack-of-all-trades employee to bring fresh air.

The second job interview was another analyst position for a medical devices company in Dec 2016. Four month contract position. The hiring manager initially interviewed me for the wrong position. He didn't know what's going on; although, many of my past jobs I didn't know what's going on. My confidence was low on my job skills. Regardless, I completed all of my job responsibilities satisfactory. Too much unnecessary worry. Past history was in my favor.

A Paycheck Or A Career

I digress. I worked in neither of the two companies. An important question yesterday and today is, "Do I want a paycheck or do I want a career?" I choose all or nothing. No middle ground. I choose all-in for happiness, being lucky, and wake up in the morning to a good job. Or I choose nothing for melancholy, being unlucky, and praying in the morning for a good day; in other words, I work for the company to cut me the paycheck.

The bad luck, bad timing, and bad choices cost me eight years as of today. Most people say I'm a loser. I can't get a job. I earn no paycheck. I live at home. I don't have a family of my own. I live a stalled life long-term.

I recognize the criticisms. I recognize the observations. I listen to opinions. I took chances. None worked out in favor. I take full responsibility not getting a job. I thought I could do better. Nothing happened.

What Are The What Ifs

I'm the best person ever today. I'm the strongest, smartest, and wisest ever today. I graduated my self job training. The present job training is the endgame. My physical fitness is tops. Health is strongest. I'm one step closer to become a self-trained genius at the end of day.

I believe the above paragraph didn't happen if I worked at either the Jul permanent job or the Dec contract job. I didn't vacation at Zion National Park in Sep 2016. I didn't need two surgeries for Acute Gallstone Pancreatitis at O'Connor Hospital in Apr 2017. My Mahjong skills stalled since I didn't play more games. 2016 was the most recent bad year. All 2016 failures became successes years later. I'm unemployed. I live with my parents. I'm not George Costanza. I'm not embarrassed. Independence is maintained to the best of my ability.

An Ultimate Life Goal

One of my ultimate life goals is don't live in a nursing home. I want to be independent. Most nursing homes and senior facility care centers are good; in contrast to bad nursing homes and senior facility care centers depicted on news, media, and movies. Some senior citizens depend on nursing homes for medical reasons with all due respect.

I exercise. I move my knees and elbows. I read. I work hard. I also work hard in leisure because work is involved. I seek new adventures. I experience new experiences. I take responsibility. My motivation and my desire are more important than intelligence and knowledge. I hope I'm lucky I don't need to live my final years in a nursing home.

My conclusion is don't be an old fuck. Don't be a grumpy old person. Don't be a person full of criticism. Don't take out my frustrations on others for a terrible less than successful younger life. No regrets. No shame.

Follow Your Deal Makers And Deal Breakers Finding Love

An Apr 15, 2021 celebrity headline stated singer Jennifer Lopez and former baseball player Alex Rodriguez broke up their two-year wedding engagement. The couple were together for four years dating on Mar 2017 and engaged for two years starting on Mar 2019. Multiple sources stated the couple "hit a rough patch." Multiple sources also stated Lopez couldn't trust Rodriguez. The couple struggled for which the COVID-19 pandemic exacerbated some of the problems. Lopez was quoted they tried to make the relationship work.

They broke up in the end. The sad side is a broken relationship. The good times are over. The memories are the past happy or sad. The grieving begins. Lopez and Rodriguez are single again. They go back to their square one dating people.

The happy side is Lopez and Rodriguez are free to find someone else who matches each of them. They find a better match. They find a stronger match. Mismatch relationships rarely work long-term. Be honest. Follow truth identity. Practice true personality.

There is giving and taking in relationships. There is compromise. Regardless, follow your deal makers. Follow your deal breakers. If you marry someone with deal breakers, those deal breakers affect your relationship in time. Truth becomes reality after the honeymoon phase.

Most relationships don't work. Nobody needs to be a relationship expert to know most relationships never last. All couples experience slowdowns and conflicts. Choose either happy being single or miserable in a relationship--especially, a mismatch relationship. Give it time. Misery is inevitable in a mismatch relationship. End a relationship with deal breakers. Cut the losses. Move on. Save time. Time is the ultimate judge.

United States Of America Today Is Election Day 2020

Today is the day US citizens votes. US citizens have a civic duty to vote. Express your thoughts. Express your feelings. Express your opinion. You may submit your vote leaving the presidential candidate field blank. You may vote for any qualified person in the write-in candidate box.

I blog my unprofessional political science opinion on past US presidents. I play the connect-the-dots card starting with the 2000 election. All of the presidents voted to serve were the correct choices. The losing candidates likely performed worse than the winning candidates. Presidents don't need a 4.0 GPA in college. Presidents don't need to be white. Presidents don't need past government experience or hold past elected positions. Presidents connect with people. Do you feel comfortable having a beer with the candidate *insert last name*? The answer is the candidate you vote.

Time is the ultimate judge for the 2020 winner. I believe the voters of the United States Of America vote for the best candidate. The voters have been successful. The voters have spoken.

Times Are Changing

I dreamed last night I went back in time to an old hobby. I attended a smaller Anime Expo anime convention in the Bay Area. I organized a MahJong gathering. There were seven people at the gathering. I needed one more person. I searched for an eighth person. One place I searched was the video game room. The video game room was located in a tiny room like a crawl space. The eighth person was a father son dual arrived at the gathering. The dream ended with the song The Times They Are a-Changin' by Bob Dylan.

Dylan wrote the song to jump start change in the 1960s. The song influences society to welcome change. There was no connection between the dream and the song. I recognize the dream caused the song to play in my head. I finally understand the song for myself personally speaking.

2020 is a year of significant changes. I can't recall a past year of global significant changes. It's like Beelzebub is collecting the bill for almost a decade of prosperity after the 2008 real estate bubble burst and the 2009-2010 global recession. Governments declare shelter in-place for the COVID-19 pandemic. Black lives matter. The people demand social justice. The people demand end police brutality. Modified professional sports seasons. Schools and colleges teach their students online. Climate change or global warming. The economy is in another global recession; on the other hand, the stock markets show no signs of a global recession. All businesses cutting back on spending and laying off employees. A few businesses are closed permanently; for example, restaurant buffets. Travel, leisure, professional or recreational conferences, and vacations cancelled. The USA election day on Nov 3, 2020 may be the biggest significant change of the year or for the next four years. The USA votes for the next President Of The United States. COVID-19 competes for the 2020 significant change.

The times are changing.

When Is An Adult An Adult?

Today's question is when is an adult an adult? When the person is no longer a teenager? Age 18? Age 21? Age 16 in some areas of the world? Age is just a number. Some people are adults when they're 30 years old. Some people are adults when they're at least 40 years old. Some people are late bloomers who realize childhood life is over.

Is an adult an adult when the person is independent? The person moves out living on his or her own. There are some people who are at least 21 years old living with their parents. The reasons are valid such as financial, helping raise children, and can't find residence close to their employment. More people in their 20s and 30s are living with their parents in the Northern California Bay Area. The Bay Area becomes New York in time. Moreover, there are people living on their own behaving like a jerk. Are jerks adults? On the other hand, there are people living with their parents who are kind. There are good people who are down on their luck with no job they must live with their parents.

Are adults responsible? Are adults strong? Are adults courageous? Are adults intelligent? Do adults earn their successes? Some of these attributes are subjective. What is the scale of intelligence for an adult to be intelligent? What about physical fitness? Some people eat too much. Some people lack physical fitness. What about emotions? Some people have a closed personality they keep their emotions to themselves. What about financial? Some people are in debt. Does debt mean poor spending habits? What about spirituality? Some people practice religion. Some people have no religion.

Do adults take care of themselves? Who is a person who fails to take care of their needs? Is he or she an adult? Who do you call people abusing their bodies such as drugs and alcohol? Who do you call people irresponsible for themselves? Are these people adults who watch too much TV or spend little time making their lives better? You reap what you sow.

There are some people who take life for granted. Do adults put in the effort to live a good life? Or do adults rely too much on good luck, good fortunes, and good timing for their life highlights? Life itself determines what happens soon. Fate, destiny, and karma guide these people their futures.

Is an adult an adult who feels sorry for himself or herself? Is an adult an adult who stops caring about his or her world and the world outside? Forget life. Life is too hard. The adult takes the easy route. On the other hand, is an adult an adult who cares too much for others neglecting his or her own needs? It may be a sign of weak self-esteem. It may be a sign of loneliness needing to please other people to meet new people.

It's a judgment call. It's everyone's own opinion when is an adult an adult. Personally speaking, I know smart, kind, and strong adults living with their parents who can't afford living independently. I know adults living independently who are jerks, rude, and mean. I became an adult on Sat Oct 4, 2008. I realized I must grow up. Time will tell everything I'm doing today to live independently tomorrow is successful. I'm learning new job skills, reviewing existing job skills, staying physically fit, minimizing eating processed foods, and sleeping eight hours a day. I pace myself with leisure reading books, listening to music, and watching movies. I'm getting stronger. I'm getting smarter. My self-esteem is getting better. A little luck and good timing follow me. I hope for the best.

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Am I Achieving Independence? Should I Achieve Something Else?

I have been blogging I need independence. I must achieve being an independent adult. I have been living at home my entire life. Why? The answer is another conversation.

Is independence overrated? I question myself my next goals finding a job, moving out, living on my own, expanding my existing life, and finding a new life. There are some independent people better off living at home. These people are happier living at home. These people can't live independently. There is a full time worker, intelligent, yet self-centered with poor health lives at home with his or her parents. Should he or she move out to discover more about life? There is a middle aged person feeding stray cats three times a day, watches too much television, and eats processed foods living on his or her own. Maybe he or she should move back with his or her parents.

Should I Achieve Something Else? How About Freedom.

I experience frustrations achieving independence; for example, the job hiring system favors recent experience and relevant knowledge highest priorities and everything else lowest priority. I have been working hard achieving independence for years with little achievements. It's like my life is on the pause button on Raymond Mar's Blu-Ray.

Maybe I should achieve freedom. I'm free from conflicts. I'm free from hate. I'm free from grudges. I'm free from anger. I'm at peace with myself. I'm happy. I'm joyful. We say freedom when a work shift is over. We say freedom when a college quarter or semester is completed. We say freedom when a bad relationship is over. Freedom or independence? I expect follow up blogs to continue the discussion.

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Raymond Mar Act III. Act IV Coming Soon.

Blogger's note: Today's blog is posted at both Innovating Common Knowledge and Finding Raymond Mar.

I separate my life from the day I was born to today in three acts. Here they are below:

Act I: 34 Years As A Child (day I was born to Oct 3, 2008). My childhood was boring. My parents provided little guidance. They were too quiet. They were slow. They did have intelligence. Honestly speaking, they were not dumb. I learned more child life lessons watching Sesame Street. I have a small amount of childhood stories to share; likewise for my teenage years. I experienced a less than my share of typical teenage firsts such as first kiss, first date, first school dance, and first girlfriend. My high school years were 50% good and 50% bad for which some may argue I had a good high school life.

I failed to take advantage of living life in my 20s in the 1990s. The mistakes I failed to learn in my 20s caught up in my 30s. I didn't earn my successes. I wasn't responsible. I didn't meet new people. I didn't make new friends. I didn't learn new ideas. I didn't experience new experiences. I didn't seek new adventures. I failed to take advantage experimenting new ideas and trying new activities as a San Joe State University student. I took life for granted.

Act II: De Anza College (Oct 4, 2008 to Nov 19, 2013). I was a late bloomer. I was overdue for adulthood. I realized I must grow up on Sat Oct 4, 2008. The actions growing up paid off immediately. First, I forgave my parents for doing a poor job raising me as a child. I'm responsible for myself catching up what I missed in my young adult years. Second, I discovered new hobbies such as ballroom dancing thanks to my sister, hiking, reading fiction books, and listening to classic jazz. Third, I purchased a new mattress, new clothes, and built a new desktop personal computer thanks to my dad, gmontem, and Appu for guidance.

I took advantage of the Great Recession going back to college. I earned an AA degree in Accounting at De Anza College. I was satisfied I corrected some mistakes. I experienced what I should have experience when I attended San Jose State University; for example, I met new people and I made new friends. Furthermore, the time from the day I graduated at De Anza College to my first day at my new job I continued seeking new adventures and experiencing new experiences I should have done both during my 20s. I continue catching up what I missed today.

Act III: Lonely Soul (Nov 20, 2013 to day before independence date). I finally got a break working at a retail start-up. It was my first job since I lost my contract job back in Nov 2008. I was hired as a contractor in a networking company for six months after working at the retail start-up. I'm job searching, learning new job skills, and reviewing existing job skills. I pace myself with leisure reading books and watching movies. I stay in physical shape working out at the gym four to five days a week. I'm lonely most of each day.

It was time to say goodbye to people holding me behind. It was time to retire from anime. It was time to go on my own to find my independence. I don't know when I achieve independence. Independence can be tomorrow. Independence can be next month. Independence can be next year. I continue living the present life intelligently. I'm not watching TV eight hours a day. I'm doing what I feel is the best for me today. I'm doing what I feel is the best for me tomorrow. I'm open to new ideas. If I stop living, then I die.

Act IV: Independence (independence date). All of my successes. All of my failures. All of my frustrations. All of my experiences. All of my wisdom acquired. All of my mistakes and the lessons learned. One of these days I connect all of the above backwards to who I am in my future. My future is a strong, intelligent, and independent Raymond Mar. Grit, responsibility, hanging on, strength, courage, and earning my winnings pay off on the day I declare myself independent.

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Be Patient, I Rescue My Loneliness And Other People's Loneliness

Some people say the world is lonely. I agree. Where are the good people in my life? Many lonely people ask the same question, too. I'm looking to create new circle of friends. My top priority is independence. The new circles of friends follow. I rescue myself and I rescue other people from loneliness when I achieve independence. I can be rescued before independence.

I want long-term good friends. I accept short-term, too. I appreciate social networks such as Facebook to keep in touch with people. Age is just a number. My definitions of good friends include being mature adults. Good friends are sociable. We converse intelligently. There is an attitude doing something new. Get up and do something, anything. We seek new experiences. We welcome new adventures. We support each other. We are tactfully open people with honestly. We laugh at our jokes. Each of us calls out others when we're wrong with discretion. Our learning never stops. Growing continues indefinitely.

I see myself living at my own residence when I achieve independence. I attract people to spend time with me. People ask me to spend time with them. All of our circles of friends enlarge. I share my hobbies, knowledge, and experiences. I hope my friends share their hobbies, knowledge, and experiences. I eliminate one lonely person one person at a time. I rescue loneliness both myself and others. They happen in my neighborhood, my apartment complex, social gatherings, my workplace, and being outdoors randomly meeting people.

Where are the lonely, unemployed, living with their parents people similar to George Costanza from Seinfeld? There are people in my situation. I'm not the only unique person. I can't find them. I welcome people with weak self-esteem if they're motivated to strengthen their self-esteem. Nobody lives a happy life being lonely.

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Throwback Blog: Something New To Me

Blogger’s Note: Throwback blogs are blogs from my past. I start posting past blogs reflecting what I wrote. It's like my "A Second Look" blogs for which I give myself feedback.

Today's throwback blog is titled Something New To Me in Aug 2007. I shared a new experience unfortunately I'm still new today. People have been helping me become a better person. They share their experiences. They teach me new knowledge. They correct my mistakes. I'm having difficulty paying back or paying it forward. The best is utilizing the experiences and knowledge daily as if I remember the people by doing them; in other words, I don't waste their efforts they spent their time for me.

Also, I continue feeling uncomfortable when people thank me for my help. Perhaps one reason is I rarely help other people. I have little experience when people show appreciation for me.

I hope times change my life when I achieve independence. Independence is a sign I'm strong, smart, kind, and wise. I want to share my experiences, to teach new knowledge, and to correct mistakes to people who were in my situation as an adult catching up what I missed in my 20s and early 30s. I hope to receive appreciation sincerely.

Since 2006, something new has been happening to me. It's a new experience I continue to understand and to learn. It's a new experience some people acquired at a younger age. It's a new experience I sometimes forget how to respond, how to follow, and how to model from those who do it naturally. The experience is being thanked by others and appreciated by others for who I am and what I do.

My family has been helping me out. They pay me back for food and groceries. They rarely paid me in the past, and, honestly, I never expected them since we're family. I always say forget about paying me. Recently, my family has been consistent in paying me back. Also, my parents have been letting me go out more often. My family had lots of family events and I participated in them in the past. There have been fewer family events today so it's good timing. My family has been opening up trying new ideas and ventures. Maybe they are taking my example of living more active and trying something new attitude *hee, hee* And my family seems to be talking to me more. It's mostly small talk. It's just that they are saying more. I think my family is appreciating what I have done with appropriate action.

My friends welcome my presence and they thank me for being part of their lives. I receive appreciation in the form of constant and sincere thanks. I receive items such as CDs with mp3. I receive information I use at a future date. I receive answers for my questions, even when I think my questions are dumb. I receive money to help me buy food and items for special events. I receive welcomes when I hang out with my friends. By being with my friends, I become a better person. They share their experience, share their adventures, and share their friendship with me. And I become a better person. I'm learning a lot from them and my life has become less dull XD Yeah, my life is still dull . . . yet I see bright and happy days ahead. I really thank my friends for being a part of me, a part of a better me.

Before 2006, I thanked others and I appreciated others for helping me be who I am today, for being my friend, and for being someone who welcomed my presence and my friendship. Before 2006, I performed the extra effort, helped out a little more, and extended my assistance to my family and friends. Many times, I received no clear appreciation such that I ask myself, "Am I important to my circle of friends?" Or "Am I really helping my family?" Furthermore, I never received clear cut signals from my family and friends I'm welcomed, I'm appreciated, and I'm part of their lives. My confidence was low when I met new people, hung out with my limited friends, and participated in family activities. I felt unimportant. Was I a good person to be with or a pain in the ass?

To repeat, I continue to understand and to learn how to behave when I'm being thanked and I'm being appreciated for my actions, my attitude, my knowledge, and my friendship to my family and my friends. All the experiences are making be a better person. I'm innovating myself. By being with my family, my friends, and meeting new people, I want to learn who they are and I want them to learn who I am. I'm not used to being on the receiving end. I have always given my thanks and appreciation.

Make sure you show your appreciation to you family, friends, co-workers, neighbors, strangers, anyone who took their time, spent their money, shared their experience, and/or give information such as referrals, tips, and street directions to you. Never assume the person is appreciated. Tell them, show them your appreciation. Do some action. Say "Thank You" with sincerity. Return the favor at a later time. Treat the person or persons out for a meal. Offer something the person or persons might be interested. Do something, do some action to recognize and appreciate their assistance appropriately.

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There Is Always A Cost

Some people underestimate the cost for their actions. Everything we do. Everything we say. Everything we react. Everything. There is a cost. There can be a sacrifice. Something is given up. There can be an exchange. Sometimes an exchange is unequal. For instance, I'm giving up my social life saying goodbye to many people for independence. We hope our actions the costs pay off at the end resulting in success. Also, success is achieved with good luck, fortunate timing, strength to endure pain, courage to accept suffering, wisdom to learn from mistakes, and working hard intelligently.

Nothing is free. There is always a cost.

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Have I Ever Chased Something Or Someone?

I asked myself the chase question last night. Was I successful chasing? Or was I successful getting what I want? I worked to achieve a goal. Earning a college degree doesn't count. Daily errands are too small to be considered. Winning a casino jackpot is silly. Watching a television series from episode one to the end of the series is ridiculous. Almost all of my friends I have met we share a common hobby at a common place. These instances involve no challenge. There are little frustrations. Mistakes made are minimal. Anyone can graduate with a college degree. Students attend classes, study, take exams, and pass.

I'm chasing plenty for the first time in my life. The chase, seek, or working hard and working intelligently is, in brief, independence. Say them whatever with different words. I want to live a good life consistently, to make my own choices, be proactive, and to control more of my life. I'm chasing the best job I have ever worked. No more data entry. No more short-term contracts. I continue learning new job skills such as Python and Tableau. I'm chasing new circle of friends. I'm looking for mature good people. I'm chasing independence. I'm chasing intelligence. I'm chasing new adventures and new experiences. I'm pursuing happiness. I succeed passing the finish line.

An exception is meeting people. Be attractive. Attract people to meet new people, make new friends, and find love.

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I'm Doing The Best I Can, Really III

Blogger's note: Today's blog is posted at both Innovating Common Knowledge and Finding Raymond Mar.

No more advice. I heard everything. No more telling me because it's highly likely I already know. I'm frustrated when I heard the same lectures I feel I'm a failure because I'm not independent. Change the subject. End the conversation. My ears are open to new ideas. I listen to fresh knowledge. Give me leads.

My life has been the same. I'm still unemployed. I'm still living at home. I'm doing the best I can. I really am. God is my witness. I job search two times a day five days a week. I used to job search six days a week. The Sat search saved little time. I continue learning Python. I continue reviewing my existing skills. Currently, I'm reviewing SQL. I take personal responsibility 24/7.

The late Steve Jobs said, "Keep looking. Don't settle."

My feelings are the same: sacrifice, nothing to lose attitude, going out of my comfort zone, willpower, and not giving up. It has been difficult finding opportunities going out of my comfort zone because I have been indoors more hours per week honestly speaking. No more data entry. I worked data entry hoping those jobs catapult me to higher positions. Failed. My life can't get worse.

I work hard intelligently working my way to live independently. I'm stronger with the pains of rejection. I'm wiser with the mistakes I learn. My brain grows bigger with new knowledge. Each day is devoted to be a good productive day. I trust what I'm doing today benefits me tomorrow.

Furthermore, I'm lucky. I have shelter in my parent's house. I have a solid desktop to job search, learn new skills, and review existing skills. I'm in good health. My gym is 2.5 miles from my house. I minimize expenses. Money is a lower concern. I pace myself. I read books, watch movies, and sleep eight hours a night. I complete my house chores such as cleaning, cooking, and laundry.

Finally, there is more working hard intelligently after I fulfill independence. There are more people to meet. There are more adventures to seek. There are more experiences to experience. Never take life for granted. Never stop learning, training, and reviewing. I never stop innovating my life.

Side note: The first time I wrote I'm Doing The Best I Can, Really was on Oct 8, 2012. The second time I wrote I'm Doing The Best I Can, Really II was on Apr 6, 2016.

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Quick Raymond Mar Question And Answer

I ask myself ten short questions. I answer my questions to the point.

1. What's your next decision? My next job offer. I want my next job to be permanent or a contract job which strengthens my resume. I can accept a data entry job to earn short-term cash. A data entry job weakens my resume.

2. When do I feel free? I live independently. I make my own choices, live a good life consistently, control more of my life, and live proactively.

3. What are the things I'm grateful for? Living at home to lower my living expenses, good health, my smarter intelligence, getting stronger, and my nothing to lose attitude.

4. Why am I motivated to do what I'm doing now? I want independence. I have nothing to lose. I do whatever it takes to reach my independence. If I stop working, then I live a lonely life. The first steps I'm doing are job searching, learning new job skills, and reviewing existing job skills.

5. Am I taking risks? Yes. My parents want me to get any job as long as it pays. I'm taking a risk waiting for the job which matches my career goals and job skills. I'm not wasting my time on a job which doesn't help me get a better job.

6. What's your favorite season? Autumn. The weather begins to cool down. Football season is in the early weeks. I have some of my best moments during the autumn months and the month of December. Life goes back to normal after the summer relaxing months.

7. Do you believe in small talk? Why or why not? Yes. The reason I believe in small talk is because small talk can lead to long conversations. Small talk is an ice breaker when meeting new people. I always meet new people. I always make new friends. I believe a person can't have too many friends.

8. Where am I wasting time in a typical day? Doing too much house chores such as cooking, cleaning, and tidying up messy areas. My parents are inactive keeping the house in a livable state. If my parents put half-effort keeping the house clean and cooking meals, then I spend more time learning new job skills.

9. What are you missing in my life today? One obvious answer is independence. Another answer is knowledge and wisdom. I'm behind in job skills, life knowledge, and adult wisdom. Fortunately, I'm catching up what I missed in my younger years. If something's missing, find it.

10. What year did you want to be born? 1973. I experienced bad breaks because I was born one year later.

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